No Manna for the Morrow

It is not the care of today, but the care of tomorrow that weighs a man down. For the need of today we have corresponding strength given. For the morrow we are told to trust. It is not ours yet. ~ George MacDonald

At my son’s 1 month well baby check, the pediatrician became alarmed. After a long exam, she determined that Dan was blind. His pupils didn’t dilate or follow the pen light she shined in his eyes. He was such a sweet, happy baby. I had absolutely no idea. Fearing that he had a brain tumor, she was able to get him an appointment the next day with one of the top pediatric ophthalmologists in the country. We began weekly trips to the University of Iowa where they found that there was no tumor, but that Dan did have ocular albinism and congenital nystagmus.

When he was 3 months old, just after a session with a specialist from the School for the Blind, a friend called to check on me. I was feeling particularly overwhelmed as I began listing all the things I was afraid Dan might never get to do, all the experiences he might not have. I told her I felt desperately inadequate to give my sweet son all that he might need.

My friend said something I’ve never forgotten: Debbie, God has promised us grace for the moment, not for the what ifs. She was right. George MacDonald was right. His grace is sufficient for everything we face today. Not for all the imagined possibilities down the road – not even for tomorrow.

When I wake up tomorrow, I will find abundant grace for each momentΒ  Like the manna for the Israelites, it can’t be stockpiled but it’s always supplied as I need it.

My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made strong in your weakness. Boasting in my weakness, and reveling in His grace, I wish you joy and grace and peace.

Once again, this job has ended and I’m temporarily unemployed. We pull out in a few hours. I don’t know when another job will be provided. I may not have any internet access for a while. I’m learning to live in the joy and grace of each moment. πŸ˜€Β  I’ll keep in touch when I can.

Author: Debbie

A former counselor and public speaker, I'm grateful for many, many things - God's grace most of all!

60 thoughts on “No Manna for the Morrow”

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  2. I wish you all the best Debbie. God’s is sufficient. Hold on to His unchanging hand and give all your cares.

    Thanks for sharing. God bless.

    1. Noel – You’ve gone back in time with me here. πŸ˜€
      I had no idea when I wrote this post, I would wait 2 weeks for a gate that I only stayed on for 5 days. But yes, God is sufficient and His lovingkind is new every morning. It is Well with My Soul. πŸ˜€
      Thank you for your encouragement.
      ~ Debbie

  3. thank you for sharing. your honesty and vulnerability paves pathways for others to open up and receive healing. You and your son and your family will be in my prayers. (and the quote at the top is so beautiful!) blessings, sister!

    1. Caitlin – I’m sorry that I’m only now seeing your comment. That means you many never see mine…
      I so would like you to know how much it touches my heart that you would be moved to pray for us, complete strangers to you. As you likely know by now, Dan and his family are doing well and are very happy. I’m still without a gate assignment, but hope to have one before too much longer.
      I love George MacDonald. Have you read him? Such an interesting mix of wisdom and sorrow and joy! Thank you, once again, Caitlin!
      Belated indebted,
      ~ Debbie

  4. Oh.
    Of course, we knew this day would arrive, but tried not to worry about it. Now the worries of today are enough for today, and today is here. Sighs.
    Where do you park when you cannot park on the job? I wonder . . .

    1. Hello dear Katharine! The parking was a little dicey this time as there was literally no room in the inn, anywhere. We don’t have a generator so we boondocked for one night and then… Never-mind – you don’t want to hear it all twice and it’s in today’s post. No worries. All is well with my soul! πŸ˜€
      ~ Debbie

  5. Thanks for sharing, Debbie

    “Debbie, God has promised us grace for the moment, not for the what ifs. ”
    I will run with this.

    Praying He will open doors for you soon. May your heart experience His great peace as you wait on Him.

    Blessings
    ann

  6. Hi Debbie… very inspiring, thank you for sharing your story.

    I admire your faith and strength. So many of just jump to panic or self-pity when we get big, challenging news.

    Thank you for exemplifying faith.

    Ciao.

    Chaz

    1. Thanks, Chaz! I think my reaction time is too slow for panic. πŸ˜€
      In this particular case, I didn’t feel sorry for myself (although I’ve done that). You know how a parent’s love is – my entire heart was wrapped up in my love for my 23 month old daughter and my tiny one month old son. There was love and there was fear for him and the fear of failing him. I wasn’t a pillar of strength. I felt completely inadequate.

      There’s so much talking that the remembering gets harder and harder but that phone conversation was a sort of epiphany for me. I can see the sun on the living room floor and the twist in the phone cord – phones had cords 29 years ago. ;D It’s a frozen in time moment. I wish I could say that I’ve applied that lesson every day since – but of course, I haven’t. I have remembered it though and the Father often brings it back to my mind when I start to get a little convoluted in my projecting or my remembering.
      ~ Debbie

  7. Debbie,
    At my son’s well check-up when he was — oh I don’t know — 3 months old our pediatrician used his penlight on his eyes, looked a bit alarmed, turned off the lights and walked all around him shining the light in his eyes.

    He turned to me and said, “I have no evidence that your son can see.” Nevertheless, he didn’t make any appointments with any specialists; he just said to keep an eye on our son to see if we could tell if he could see.

    It was Wednesday.

    That night, without my husband who was sleeping at home, I took our son to church. I took him to the altar where our pastor anointed him with oil.

    I have a wonderful photograph of my son looking right at a red brochure he is holding in his hand the very next morning.

    He may well have been blind, but he’s not blind now.
    That was about 29 years ago.
    God is good; He does give us the grace we need when we need it.
    Blessings, Carley

    1. Dear Carley – It sounds like our sons are the same age, with a similar start. Isn’t that something? Thank you for sharing your story of grace and healing and hope. All of our prayers aren’t always answered the way our prayers for our son’s vision were, but God is still always Good and abundantly gracious.
      Thank you, again, Carley.
      ~ Debbie

    1. livinginobscurity – Hello and welcome to TMG. How very kind of you to pray for me right out of the gate! Thank you!
      I look forward to visiting you soon!
      ~ Debbie

    1. Dearest Drusilla –
      Thank you, my friend. You’re such a faithful encourager!
      Thank you, too, for praying for a job. I do know, but I love to be reminded anyway! πŸ˜€
      ~ Debbie

    1. Dear jelillie – You know, I’ve never had this many people pray for a job for me in my entire life! I’m certainly interested to see where God puts us after all these prayers! Thank you, friend!
      ~ Debbie

    1. Vicky – We truly aren’t worried. We’ve been doing all the things gate guards can’t get done when they’re working: Walmart, car wash, hair cuts, groceries, lumber yard (since half of our boards bounced off Junior’s trailer) etc… Heidi baked brownies for all the staff here at the yard today. Tomorrow we hope to read and catch up on blogs and email. I have 358 unread emails and no spam, so I’d better get on it! πŸ˜€
      ~ Debbie

  8. Dear Debbie,

    you astound me. you inspire me. you are a remarkable woman with faith that can move mountains!

    I read this with so much pain thinking of the struggles for you and for your son, being inspired by your faith in the face of so much pain and uncertainty.

    And then the pink slip and the move AND still FAITH!

    Prayers are going out. You inspire them

    Love to you (both)

    Jen

    1. Dear Jen –
      You don’t only write love and grace, you truly extend it.
      How many would invite a stranger (I think I’m a stranger since we’ve never met) into their home? You astound me! Thank you!
      I became a little alarmed as the comments began to come in and I realized I’d caused undo concern for Dan. When I told him I thought I’d better write a follow up post to clarify his life today he agreed and said:
      “I think you should tell your poor friends I’m not blind – your post almost made ME cry, and I know I’m not blind!” πŸ˜‰

      We were fortunate to only have a week without work last year.The situation is a little different this winter, but we’re both very much at peace.
      Of course, if this goes on for too long, you may have to shovel that driveway! πŸ˜€
      Seriously, thank you. You have a heart as big as the Texas sky!
      Love,
      Debbie

  9. Gracious one, you bless me so much. The what ifs and tomorrows can be so overwhelming. But resting in His grace right this minute is sweet. You capture it all so well here, through your own life. Thank you and God bless you as you go forth in His grace and peace and love.

    1. Dearest Deb – I thought about you as I was writing this post. You are the epitome of resting in His grace. Thank you for being my friend for real.
      ~ Debbie

  10. Another wise and wonderful post. We get grace for now! Grab it! Grace is with you always. I know, maybe even you have to remind yourself to accept it when all the what-ifs start popping up. So many! xoxo melis

    1. dear melis – Well said, my friend – ‘We get grace for now! Grab it!” πŸ˜€
      Not clinging to the grace provided for the moment seem a little like dog paddling past the life ring, when the boat is right there, ready to pull you in.
      Grace and peace to you, melis,
      ~ Debbie

  11. Isn’t it a miracle that Dan is such a fantastic and successful young prof with 2 darling kids(and a wonderful wife). Hard to really remember how firightened we all were and know there is so little he can’t do today. God is Good!!!!!
    He will take care of you. Hope you have good news soon.
    Lots of Love!!!!
    Sis

    1. Dear Sis – I hope people read your comment since I’m only now able to get on line again. I didn’t start out to tell Dan’s story, just to make a point about my own fear and what helped. Those were some rough years. Mostly it was hard watching him struggle so much. But you’re right, I’ve never known a finer man! God is Good!!!
      I love you so much,
      Deb

  12. Blessings to you, Debbie! This post says everything there is to say about grace. I think your next job should be: a book deal. Why in the world don’t you put all of these beautiful insights into a coffee table book? I’ll buy a dozen. You should try Kickstarter or Pubslush and get people to back your first volume.

    This is what people are needing in their lives: inspiration, determination, celebration. I can say I knew you when!

    Go get em, girl,

    Ruth

    1. Dear Ruth – You make me smile, my sweet writer friend! Thank you for your kind words. You certainly made my day! I don’t see a book in my future. I think, counting you, the total sales would be 14 (my kids are too polite not to buy one for someone).
      I’ll leave the book writing to the real writers but thank you. It means a lot to me, coming from you, a REAL writer – and even more so because I like you!
      Keep an eye on things in Jersey for me will you? I’ve got some pretty special people out there! πŸ˜€
      ~ Debbie

  13. Oh, dear sister, Debbie–this sent a stinging rush of tears to my eyes. Sometimes my life seems luxuriously easy, when I compare it to my sisters and brothers here. Which is futile–the comparison exercise. What a wonderful word of reminder, though–grace for today, provisions for today, wisdom for today, Full Sufficiency for today–in Him.

    I’ll be praying for the next job (I mis-typed “joy”, but I guess I’ll pray for that as well!)–and that you have Internet service sooner than later. I’d “sure ‘nough” hate to have you miss any of the Shekina Glory or Caddo Delight–or even the enigmatic Caddo (picture dark glasses larger than my head in the gravatar!). I send you much love, bunches of fresh hugs–the usual order! xxxooo CV

    1. Dear Caddo Delight – I surely don’t want to miss out on the Shekina Glory! I’ll head your way soon. Tomorrow if I can’t stay awake tonight (I’m still trying to reset my clock to days).
      Wow! I have a whole new picture of you! πŸ˜€ Love it and love you!
      ~ Debbie

    1. Dear Paulann – Talk about making the simple, hard, huh? It’s so much easier to live in this moment and yet, so tempting to skip ahead. Many of the things I’ve feared, haven’t happened, and most of the worst things that have happened, I never feared because I didn’t know they were just around the bend.
      Do you know the old Gaither song, We Have This Moment?
      “We have this moment to hold in our hands and to touch as it slips through our fingers like sand; Yesterday’s gone and tomorrow may never come, But we have this moment today.”
      Good reminder to me, tool
      ~ Debbie

    1. Oh Kate – and you woke up praying. How can I thank you? As much as my family appreciates the prayers, I feel like we received them under false pretense – which certainly wasn’t my intention.
      As you’ll see in the next post (which really isn’t a post – just an explanation of this one), Dan is sees pretty well and is has been blessed with a rich, wonderful life.

      Heidi (my friend @ http://goodlifenoalcohol.wordpress.com/) and I worked 24 hours a day for 264 straight days last year. We share this job. Heidi works days and I work nights. We had a great deal of job security because we followed a rig. When our company stacked (pulled their rigs – over budget) things became a little more tenuous. I’m very hopeful to get another assignment soon. In the meantime, all our needs are met and I feel complete peace. Without question your prayers are a gift of that grace.
      Thank you, dear Kate,
      Debbie

    1. Dear Susie – I feel like I owe everyone an apology. I didn’t mean to misrepresent things in my last post. The specific memory of that day and that phone call is still so vivid, 29 years later. I can’t begin to tell you how many times I’ve had to remind myself of my friend’s wise words. I should have been more thoughtful in the way I told the story.
      You dear, kind soul – thank you for praying.
      ~ Debbie

  14. Debbie,

    Another amazing message. I’m not always very good at keeping my thoughts in the present. As long as I can remember, I would focus on what we were doing next. That made me miss the fullness of the blessings of the moment, like taking in the view, relaxing beside the pool. Thinking about tomorrow kept me on edge and not very excited about some of the amazing experiences I’ve had.

    I will be praying that you new job is quickly revealed to you.

    1. Dear Jill – Oh yes, that’s it exactly!
      Isn’t it interesting how we can lose sight of the moment, even during happy times? Interesting in kind of a sad way.
      I do some traveling with a close friend. She always makes me laugh because before we even leave she’ll sadly say,’It’ll all be over before we know it’!
      Learning to live in the moment and experience the joy or accept the grace for the pain seems like it would be the easiest way – and perhaps it is – but I don’t think it’s the natural way for most of us.
      Thank you for your prayers. We hope to have an assignment soon. In the meantime, I’ve a lot of reading to do! πŸ˜‰
      ~ Debbie

    1. Dear Jeanne – I don’t know if you’ll see this reply first or the next post. I truly didn’t mean to mislead. I didn’t finish the story because I only have 300 words and because my point was found in my friend’s wise words.
      I still appreciate your prayers for Dan. He’s the finest man that I know. His faith is deep and his heart is tender. He’s a wonderful husband and father, and a great professor who really cares about his students. So while you may not have known why you were praying for him, he benefited from your prayers, none the less. πŸ˜€
      When I wrote this post, I was thinking of my struggles to apply grace each moment and I wasn’t sensitive enough to the kind hearts of those who read this blog. I’m sorry for that but deeply appreciative of your kindness and prayers. Thank you once again,
      ~ Debbie

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